1 00:00:07,311 --> 00:00:10,271 Previously onSWAT...HICKS: 17-year-old Raymont Harris 2 00:00:10,314 --> 00:00:13,622 was accidentally shot by team leader Buck Spivey. 3 00:00:13,665 --> 00:00:14,927 I spent my life serving this city, 4 00:00:14,971 --> 00:00:17,060 and I undid everything I had accomplished 5 00:00:17,104 --> 00:00:18,409 with a single mistake. 6 00:00:18,453 --> 00:00:20,063 We're looking to launch a private security firm. 7 00:00:20,107 --> 00:00:21,891 I've struggled a bunchsince leaving SWAT. 8 00:00:21,934 --> 00:00:22,935 I mean, this could be big for me. 9 00:00:22,979 --> 00:00:24,502 All right, let's do this. 10 00:00:24,546 --> 00:00:25,764 Where does Buck fit into all this? 11 00:00:25,808 --> 00:00:27,592 He can't be the name or face of this company. 12 00:00:27,636 --> 00:00:28,724 You can. 13 00:00:28,767 --> 00:00:30,073 Concert promoter's pissed. 14 00:00:30,117 --> 00:00:31,509 He hasn't been able to reach Buck all day. 15 00:00:31,553 --> 00:00:33,468 So what happens to Buck? 16 00:00:35,470 --> 00:00:37,907 Most times, I... 17 00:00:37,950 --> 00:00:41,606 I work stuff out by talking to my family or friends. 18 00:00:43,434 --> 00:00:45,871 I know they have my back. 19 00:00:45,915 --> 00:00:47,830 And that keeps me grounded. 20 00:00:50,615 --> 00:00:52,095 But... 21 00:00:54,141 --> 00:00:57,579 ...today's the first time I feltlike I really needed this. 22 00:00:57,622 --> 00:00:59,363 Because of what happened. 23 00:00:59,407 --> 00:01:01,800 Yeah. 24 00:01:01,844 --> 00:01:03,628 That really sucked. 25 00:01:03,672 --> 00:01:06,109 Maybe it'd be easier if we talk about it, 26 00:01:06,153 --> 00:01:07,632 from the beginning. 27 00:01:11,332 --> 00:01:13,203 It started with Hondo. 28 00:01:16,946 --> 00:01:18,382 AUTOMATED VOICE: We're sorry. 29 00:01:18,426 --> 00:01:20,645 The voice mailbox you've reached is full. 30 00:01:23,953 --> 00:01:25,302 Everything okay, babe? 31 00:01:25,346 --> 00:01:28,262 Yeah, a pipe burst overnight at the community center. 32 00:01:28,305 --> 00:01:30,394 Got to get in and see how bad the damage is. 33 00:01:30,438 --> 00:01:32,483 You got a sump pump you keep handy? 34 00:01:32,527 --> 00:01:33,919 Oh, I'm fresh out, boo. 35 00:01:33,963 --> 00:01:36,096 I swear that place is gonna drive me to bankruptcy. 36 00:01:36,139 --> 00:01:37,140 It's always something. 37 00:01:37,184 --> 00:01:38,576 Yeah, I know the feeling. 38 00:01:38,620 --> 00:01:39,795 What's up? 39 00:01:39,838 --> 00:01:41,318 I just can't get ahold of Buck. 40 00:01:41,362 --> 00:01:42,841 Your old team leader? 41 00:01:42,885 --> 00:01:44,887 Something wrong?No one's seen him in a few days. 42 00:01:44,930 --> 00:01:46,410 And Deacon mentioned something was off about him, 43 00:01:46,454 --> 00:01:48,282 and now he's not answering anybody's calls. 44 00:01:48,325 --> 00:01:50,284 Quick trip to Vegas maybe?I don't know. 45 00:01:50,327 --> 00:01:52,155 He's fell off the grid like thisa couple times before 46 00:01:52,199 --> 00:01:53,635 when something was wrong, so I'm just gonna 47 00:01:53,678 --> 00:01:54,984 stop by his place and check in. 48 00:01:55,027 --> 00:01:56,551 I think you should. 49 00:01:56,594 --> 00:01:58,466 Love you. 50 00:01:58,509 --> 00:02:00,120 Bye. 51 00:02:01,164 --> 00:02:02,165 [sighs] 52 00:02:05,734 --> 00:02:07,736 [doorbell rings] 53 00:02:07,779 --> 00:02:09,694 [knocking] 54 00:02:13,307 --> 00:02:15,178 All right, Buck keeps a spare key around back. 55 00:02:15,222 --> 00:02:17,876 That's what got me in the last time I was worried about him. 56 00:02:19,226 --> 00:02:21,402 Buck? 57 00:02:21,445 --> 00:02:23,447 You home? 58 00:02:24,622 --> 00:02:26,320 Check the rooms and the garage. 59 00:02:26,363 --> 00:02:27,712 Yeah. 60 00:02:35,807 --> 00:02:37,026 STREET:No sign of him. 61 00:02:37,069 --> 00:02:38,854 Car's gone, too. 62 00:02:38,897 --> 00:02:42,466 Man, I know Buck likes to throwa few back, but this is... 63 00:02:42,510 --> 00:02:44,294 it's a lot. 64 00:02:47,558 --> 00:02:49,081 His phone's dead. 65 00:02:50,344 --> 00:02:53,042 Found these in the bedroom. Sleeping pills. 66 00:02:53,085 --> 00:02:55,218 Rest of the rooms look like this one? 67 00:02:55,262 --> 00:02:56,524 Yeah. 68 00:02:56,567 --> 00:02:58,482 Looks like the last couple of calls 69 00:02:58,526 --> 00:03:00,310 went to an Owen Bennett yesterday. Yeah. 70 00:03:00,354 --> 00:03:02,225 That's our business partner at the private security firm. 71 00:03:02,269 --> 00:03:04,227 There's only one other call to a 1-800 number. 72 00:03:04,271 --> 00:03:05,533 [line ringing] 73 00:03:05,576 --> 00:03:06,969 AUTOMATED VOICE: You have reached 74 00:03:07,012 --> 00:03:09,276 the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, 75 00:03:09,319 --> 00:03:11,278 also servicing the Veteran's Crisis Line. 76 00:03:11,321 --> 00:03:14,890 If you are in emotional distressor suicidal crisis 77 00:03:14,933 --> 00:03:16,370 or are concerned about someone who might be, 78 00:03:16,413 --> 00:03:18,110 we're here to help. 79 00:03:18,154 --> 00:03:20,548 Please remain on the...How long was the call? 80 00:03:20,591 --> 00:03:22,985 It says one minute, which meansit could've been less. 81 00:03:23,028 --> 00:03:25,248 He might've justcalled and hung up.Gun safe's empty, too. 82 00:03:25,292 --> 00:03:26,641 Get ahold of the rest of 20-Squad. 83 00:03:26,684 --> 00:03:27,946 We got to track Buck down now. 84 00:03:27,990 --> 00:03:29,948 How do you plan on doing that?I'm not sure. 85 00:03:29,992 --> 00:03:31,254 But I got a real bad feeling 86 00:03:31,298 --> 00:03:32,908 we don't have time to get it wrong. 87 00:03:32,951 --> 00:03:34,953 ♪ 88 00:04:09,771 --> 00:04:12,295 Dad used to hate it when Captain McClintock 89 00:04:12,339 --> 00:04:13,949 made him do these sessions. 90 00:04:13,992 --> 00:04:16,386 Why's that?He thought they were B.S. 91 00:04:16,430 --> 00:04:19,607 That anyone who needed therapy wasn't fit to be a cop. 92 00:04:19,650 --> 00:04:22,436 He used to tell me, "How can youtrust somebody to have your back 93 00:04:22,479 --> 00:04:24,394 when they don't even havetheir own issues squared away?" 94 00:04:24,438 --> 00:04:26,353 I see hundreds of officersevery year, Luca. 95 00:04:26,396 --> 00:04:28,006 Do you feelthat way about them? 96 00:04:28,050 --> 00:04:29,051 No. 97 00:04:29,094 --> 00:04:31,445 I mean, I get why we do it now. 98 00:04:31,488 --> 00:04:34,448 Especially after a day like today. 99 00:04:34,491 --> 00:04:35,884 [sighs] 100 00:04:37,189 --> 00:04:40,149 Well, Buck was old school like my pops. 101 00:04:40,192 --> 00:04:43,021 He didn't like talking to the cop shrink, either. 102 00:04:45,154 --> 00:04:47,112 Maybe it would've helped him. 103 00:04:47,156 --> 00:04:50,028 Has what happened today given you second thoughts 104 00:04:50,072 --> 00:04:52,074 about getting back into the field? 105 00:04:52,117 --> 00:04:54,816 Nah, I can't wait to get back out there. 106 00:04:56,600 --> 00:04:59,081 But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried. 107 00:04:59,124 --> 00:05:01,083 [softly]:Hmm. 108 00:05:01,126 --> 00:05:03,607 I mean, what if I can't? 109 00:05:05,435 --> 00:05:06,828 I already failed one fitness test. 110 00:05:06,871 --> 00:05:09,396 I thought it was because of my hip. 111 00:05:11,746 --> 00:05:14,792 What if it's really... [sighs] 112 00:05:14,836 --> 00:05:16,228 up here, you know? 113 00:05:18,013 --> 00:05:20,450 That's not so easy to fix. 114 00:05:20,494 --> 00:05:23,061 Is losing SWAT something you're afraid of? 115 00:05:24,933 --> 00:05:26,674 For as long as SWAT's existed, 116 00:05:26,717 --> 00:05:29,285 there's always been a Luca on the team. 117 00:05:30,895 --> 00:05:34,203 Without it... 118 00:05:34,246 --> 00:05:36,248 I don't know who I am. 119 00:05:40,775 --> 00:05:43,255 Maybe that's how Buck felt, too. 120 00:05:46,955 --> 00:05:48,565 Hey, what's the word, Hondo? 121 00:05:48,609 --> 00:05:50,262 Buck's been AWOL for 48 hours 122 00:05:50,306 --> 00:05:53,048 and we think he might behaving suicidal thoughts. 123 00:05:53,091 --> 00:05:55,398 Put the word out with patrols, some of his old metro buddies. 124 00:05:55,442 --> 00:05:57,531 They're gonna reach out if they locate him. 125 00:05:57,574 --> 00:05:59,533 Hopefully, it's not too late.What? What's that supposed to mean? 126 00:05:59,576 --> 00:06:01,709 Buck's not here andwe don't know where he's headed. 127 00:06:01,752 --> 00:06:04,015 Yeah, well, that's why we need to find him.We will. Buck will be fine. 128 00:06:04,059 --> 00:06:05,539 One thing's for sure:we ain't gonna find Buck 129 00:06:05,582 --> 00:06:07,236 just standing around here, so let's plan this out. 130 00:06:07,279 --> 00:06:09,412 All right, Chris and I can go talk to Owen. 131 00:06:09,456 --> 00:06:11,109 Last two calls he made were to him. 132 00:06:11,153 --> 00:06:12,676 Tan, I want you to check and see if Buck stopped 133 00:06:12,720 --> 00:06:13,808 at any of his favorite haunts around town. 134 00:06:13,851 --> 00:06:15,287 You know the places.Yeah. 135 00:06:15,331 --> 00:06:17,202 Street and I will try to find Buck's ex-wife Jenny, 136 00:06:17,246 --> 00:06:18,639 see if he reached out to her. 137 00:06:18,682 --> 00:06:20,205 Luca, you sit on his housein case he comes home. 138 00:06:20,249 --> 00:06:21,859 All right, be careful.We think Buck is armed 139 00:06:21,903 --> 00:06:22,860 and he may be drinking. 140 00:06:22,904 --> 00:06:24,384 That's a scary combination. 141 00:06:24,427 --> 00:06:26,037 And keep your phones close. Rocker and Becker's teams 142 00:06:26,081 --> 00:06:27,778 are up today, but we're on call in case 143 00:06:27,822 --> 00:06:29,214 anything else pops off in the city. 144 00:06:29,258 --> 00:06:30,477 Let's get it done.Okay. 145 00:06:30,520 --> 00:06:32,174 Got your voice mail. 146 00:06:32,217 --> 00:06:33,567 It sounded urgent. 147 00:06:33,610 --> 00:06:35,046 Did Buck stop by here today? 148 00:06:35,090 --> 00:06:37,484 Yeah. To resign from the company. 149 00:06:37,527 --> 00:06:39,007 When?A few hours ago. 150 00:06:39,050 --> 00:06:41,009 It was strange. He apologized. 151 00:06:41,052 --> 00:06:43,315 Said that he's been letting meand the company down, 152 00:06:43,359 --> 00:06:46,057 that he needed to resignand get out of our way. 153 00:06:46,101 --> 00:06:47,798 Yeah, his work has beenslipping, but I would've got him 154 00:06:47,842 --> 00:06:49,626 back on track, talked him out of quitting.I tried. 155 00:06:49,670 --> 00:06:50,932 But he insisted. 156 00:06:50,975 --> 00:06:52,760 Did he say anything about what he was doing 157 00:06:52,803 --> 00:06:54,109 or where he was going? 158 00:06:54,152 --> 00:06:55,153 No, nothing. 159 00:06:55,197 --> 00:06:56,328 Work aside, 160 00:06:56,372 --> 00:06:58,243 Buck's a friend. 161 00:06:58,287 --> 00:06:59,984 Is he okay? 162 00:07:02,596 --> 00:07:04,075 Hondo, Jim. 163 00:07:04,119 --> 00:07:05,294 Long time. 164 00:07:05,337 --> 00:07:06,643 HONDO: It's nice to see you, Jenny. 165 00:07:06,687 --> 00:07:08,079 Did something happen to Buck? 166 00:07:09,429 --> 00:07:11,256 You say that likeit wouldn't be a surprise. 167 00:07:11,300 --> 00:07:12,910 Well, would it be? 168 00:07:12,954 --> 00:07:14,608 He's been drinking, a lot. 169 00:07:14,651 --> 00:07:16,131 Avoiding us, not answering calls. 170 00:07:16,174 --> 00:07:18,786 How bad is it, honestly? 171 00:07:18,829 --> 00:07:21,092 Jenny, we're worried that he might hurt himself. 172 00:07:22,180 --> 00:07:23,312 Have you seen him lately? 173 00:07:23,355 --> 00:07:24,618 Did he reach out at all? 174 00:07:24,661 --> 00:07:26,402 He stopped by a couple of nights ago, 175 00:07:26,446 --> 00:07:28,578 but I wasn't home. 176 00:07:28,622 --> 00:07:30,145 He left me a vinyl record: 177 00:07:30,188 --> 00:07:32,234 "Got to Give It Up" by Marvin Gaye. 178 00:07:32,277 --> 00:07:33,583 Whenever we heard that song, 179 00:07:33,627 --> 00:07:35,890 he'd pull me up and we'd start dancing. 180 00:07:35,933 --> 00:07:37,239 Bars, restaurants, down the middle 181 00:07:37,282 --> 00:07:39,023 of the ice cream aisle at the store. 182 00:07:40,242 --> 00:07:42,810 That was a different Buck, though, different times. 183 00:07:42,853 --> 00:07:44,507 He's just going through a rough patch right now. 184 00:07:44,551 --> 00:07:46,030 [chuckles softly] 185 00:07:48,032 --> 00:07:50,034 You really don't know, do you? 186 00:07:52,384 --> 00:07:54,604 After Buck left SWAT, 187 00:07:54,648 --> 00:07:58,173 we tried to reconcile, save our marriage. 188 00:07:58,216 --> 00:07:59,827 He'd always had his struggles, 189 00:07:59,870 --> 00:08:04,005 but it got worse after the Raymont Harris shooting. 190 00:08:04,048 --> 00:08:05,659 Anxiety, depression, 191 00:08:05,702 --> 00:08:07,661 mood swings. 192 00:08:07,704 --> 00:08:09,097 Sometimes he couldn't sleep at all 193 00:08:09,140 --> 00:08:11,099 unless he got blackout drunk. 194 00:08:11,142 --> 00:08:13,449 You've heard ofsleepwalking? 195 00:08:15,233 --> 00:08:19,455 Some nights, he'd tryto arrest me in his sleep. 196 00:08:19,499 --> 00:08:23,459 Accidentally bounced my head onthe nightstand a couple times. 197 00:08:25,330 --> 00:08:27,724 I couldn't stay around anymore. 198 00:08:29,204 --> 00:08:32,207 I tried to get him to talk to somebody, get some help. 199 00:08:32,250 --> 00:08:34,035 But he was too worried about how it would look, 200 00:08:34,078 --> 00:08:35,689 the great Buck Spivey seeming weak. 201 00:08:35,732 --> 00:08:38,692 [phone beeping] 202 00:08:38,735 --> 00:08:40,215 I still hate that sound. 203 00:08:40,258 --> 00:08:42,434 Yeah, I can't say we're a bigfan of it either right now. 204 00:08:42,478 --> 00:08:44,045 Barricade with hostages. 205 00:08:44,088 --> 00:08:45,742 Rocker and Becker can't respond.We're up. 206 00:08:45,786 --> 00:08:47,875 Thanks.Hondo. 207 00:08:47,918 --> 00:08:50,573 Call me if you find him, either way. 208 00:08:51,618 --> 00:08:52,793 I will. 209 00:08:55,273 --> 00:08:57,580 All right, Luca,I got unis out looking for him, 210 00:08:57,624 --> 00:08:59,234 a BOLO on his truck. 211 00:08:59,277 --> 00:09:01,932 I'll let you and Hondo know as soon as I spot him. 212 00:09:01,976 --> 00:09:04,282 Keep me updated on your end. 213 00:09:04,326 --> 00:09:05,893 Alicia Baldwin. 214 00:09:05,936 --> 00:09:07,459 Commander Robert Hicks. 215 00:09:07,503 --> 00:09:09,461 Let me guess: lawyer? 216 00:09:09,505 --> 00:09:10,550 [chuckles softly] 217 00:09:10,593 --> 00:09:12,334 I've been told you have a situation, 218 00:09:12,377 --> 00:09:13,727 so I'll cut to the chase. 219 00:09:13,770 --> 00:09:15,467 I'm here to see Sergeant Daniel Harrelson. 220 00:09:15,511 --> 00:09:16,904 Regarding what? 221 00:09:16,947 --> 00:09:18,993 I'm here on behalf of my client, 222 00:09:19,036 --> 00:09:20,864 who values anonymity and total privacy. 223 00:09:20,908 --> 00:09:23,606 I've been instructed to onlyspeak with Sergeant Harrelson. 224 00:09:23,650 --> 00:09:25,173 Well, he's out on the job right now 225 00:09:25,216 --> 00:09:27,175 and he won't be back for quite some time. 226 00:09:27,218 --> 00:09:29,699 Oh, I'll just wait for him here if you don't mind. 227 00:09:29,743 --> 00:09:31,179 This isn't a Starbucks. 228 00:09:31,222 --> 00:09:33,268 Even so. 229 00:09:35,226 --> 00:09:37,011 [sirens wailing] 230 00:09:40,841 --> 00:09:42,407 Hey, you're first with metro on the scene. 231 00:09:42,451 --> 00:09:43,974 Burrows. So what's the situation? 232 00:09:44,018 --> 00:09:45,628 Looks like a robbery gone bad. 233 00:09:45,672 --> 00:09:47,412 One armed suspect inside, about ten hostages, 234 00:09:47,456 --> 00:09:48,892 at least one wounded. 235 00:09:48,936 --> 00:09:50,894 Unis didn't get a good look.As soon as they arrived, 236 00:09:50,938 --> 00:09:52,330 suspect took a couple shots at them, 237 00:09:52,374 --> 00:09:53,810 barricaded the front, pulled the blinds. 238 00:09:53,854 --> 00:09:55,769 He make any demands?Nothing coherent. 239 00:09:55,812 --> 00:09:57,292 Guy's high as hell. I'm guessing meth. 240 00:09:57,335 --> 00:09:58,989 So unstableand unpredictable. 241 00:09:59,033 --> 00:10:00,251 Hondo and Streetjust got here. 242 00:10:00,295 --> 00:10:01,688 They're gearing upon the four side. 243 00:10:01,731 --> 00:10:03,037 All right, let's get eyes inside, 244 00:10:03,080 --> 00:10:05,126 find our best entry,get these hostages out alive. 245 00:10:06,780 --> 00:10:08,782 ♪ 246 00:10:23,057 --> 00:10:25,146 TAN: 25-David to 20-David. 247 00:10:25,189 --> 00:10:27,757 I got six hostagesin a back room on the two side. 248 00:10:27,801 --> 00:10:30,020 Suspect's got a wound to his left leg. 249 00:10:30,064 --> 00:10:31,631 He's on the move. 250 00:10:31,674 --> 00:10:33,241 I've got eyes now. 251 00:10:33,284 --> 00:10:35,199 Suspect's in the dining area, the one side. 252 00:10:35,243 --> 00:10:37,637 I count eight more hostages in the one-four corner 253 00:10:37,680 --> 00:10:39,639 of the dining room; that makes 14 total. 254 00:10:41,292 --> 00:10:43,381 I see the wounded hostage. Doesn't look good. 255 00:10:43,425 --> 00:10:45,253 HONDO: Then we need to move fast. 256 00:10:45,296 --> 00:10:47,211 [glass breaks] 257 00:10:49,823 --> 00:10:51,694 [flashbang grenade booms, people grunting] 258 00:10:53,740 --> 00:10:56,133 LAPD!Get on the ground now! 259 00:10:56,177 --> 00:10:58,309 Street, Chris, coming your way. 260 00:11:00,224 --> 00:11:02,009 [grunts, groans]Don't move! 261 00:11:02,052 --> 00:11:04,751 Give me your hands.CHRIS: Code 4. 262 00:11:04,794 --> 00:11:06,448 Suspect in custody. 263 00:11:08,885 --> 00:11:10,713 Heard from Hondo. 264 00:11:10,757 --> 00:11:12,889 We're a Code 4 on the hibachi grill shooter. 265 00:11:13,977 --> 00:11:15,718 Friend of yours?Hardly.She couldn't have 266 00:11:15,762 --> 00:11:17,546 picked a worse possible dayto show up, though. 267 00:11:17,589 --> 00:11:18,721 I haven't hada spare moment 268 00:11:18,765 --> 00:11:20,244 to figure outwhat the hell she wants. 269 00:11:20,288 --> 00:11:21,593 Well, I did some digging. 270 00:11:21,637 --> 00:11:23,421 She's not just some ambulance chaser. 271 00:11:23,465 --> 00:11:24,727 She's a power hitter. 272 00:11:24,771 --> 00:11:27,512 She's a junior partner at Cordero-Lask. 273 00:11:27,556 --> 00:11:29,210 HICKS:Someone's paying her800 bucks an hour 274 00:11:29,253 --> 00:11:30,559 just to sit on her ass? 275 00:11:30,602 --> 00:11:31,821 Something doesn't add up. 276 00:11:31,865 --> 00:11:33,475 Then how about we check her math? 277 00:11:36,783 --> 00:11:38,219 So, 278 00:11:38,262 --> 00:11:41,222 what on earth could Cordero-Lask want 279 00:11:41,265 --> 00:11:42,702 with Metro SWAT? 280 00:11:42,745 --> 00:11:45,356 My business is strictlywith Sergeant Harrelson. 281 00:11:45,400 --> 00:11:46,401 But you know he isn't here. 282 00:11:46,444 --> 00:11:48,055 Well, still,my client is insistent 283 00:11:48,098 --> 00:11:50,274 on resolving this matterquickly, so I'll wait. 284 00:11:50,318 --> 00:11:52,712 I'm about two secondsfrom kicking you out of here. 285 00:11:52,755 --> 00:11:54,191 Have I done something wrong? 286 00:11:54,235 --> 00:11:55,845 I'm here to speakwith Sergeant Harrelson, 287 00:11:55,889 --> 00:11:57,412 not SWAT or the LAPD. 288 00:11:57,455 --> 00:12:00,676 You go after one of my officers,you go after all of SWAT. 289 00:12:01,721 --> 00:12:05,202 Alicia, is this super secret task of yours 290 00:12:05,246 --> 00:12:08,466 going to involve litigationfor Sergeant Harrelson or SWAT? 291 00:12:10,294 --> 00:12:12,644 No. This is a personal matter, 292 00:12:12,688 --> 00:12:15,256 one my client would preferto keep out of the press. 293 00:12:15,299 --> 00:12:16,779 Well, it would've beena lot easier 294 00:12:16,823 --> 00:12:18,825 if you just said thatin the beginning. 295 00:12:24,613 --> 00:12:25,962 BURROWS: We're still interviewing hostages, 296 00:12:26,006 --> 00:12:27,137 but already got bad news. 297 00:12:27,181 --> 00:12:28,356 The restaurant shootout 298 00:12:28,399 --> 00:12:30,445 started as a botched robberywith two gunmen. 299 00:12:30,488 --> 00:12:32,055 The other shooter fledbefore LAPD arrived. 300 00:12:32,099 --> 00:12:33,753 So there's a second shooter still out there. 301 00:12:33,796 --> 00:12:35,232 Any I.D.?None yet. 302 00:12:35,276 --> 00:12:36,799 I got my guysreviewing security footage, 303 00:12:36,843 --> 00:12:38,018 running down leads.[phone ringing] 304 00:12:38,061 --> 00:12:39,541 I'll loop SWAT back inwhen we have anything. 305 00:12:39,584 --> 00:12:40,585 Okay. 306 00:12:40,629 --> 00:12:42,283 Tell me something good, Luca. 307 00:12:42,326 --> 00:12:43,980 Think I got something here at Buck's place. 308 00:12:44,024 --> 00:12:45,982 I just found some paperwork to a storage unit. 309 00:12:46,026 --> 00:12:47,592 Got off the phone with the manager. 310 00:12:47,636 --> 00:12:49,507 He said Buck's car is parked there right now. 311 00:12:49,551 --> 00:12:52,032 Where is it?Near Downtown. I just told Hondo. 312 00:12:52,075 --> 00:12:54,208 Text the address. We'll meet you there. 313 00:12:59,300 --> 00:13:01,476 STREET: Buck's truck. 314 00:13:04,479 --> 00:13:05,872 No Buck. 315 00:13:05,915 --> 00:13:07,917 What's his storage unit number? 316 00:13:07,961 --> 00:13:09,876 Unit A308. 317 00:13:09,919 --> 00:13:12,182 I see it. Right here. 318 00:13:20,321 --> 00:13:22,192 Tan, open it up. 319 00:13:30,200 --> 00:13:31,071 [sighs] 320 00:13:31,114 --> 00:13:32,289 He's got to be someplace close. 321 00:13:32,333 --> 00:13:33,508 All right, Luca, Tan, check the office. 322 00:13:33,551 --> 00:13:35,640 See if the manager saw him go anywhere. Go. 323 00:13:40,297 --> 00:13:41,908 This receipt is from this morning. 324 00:13:41,951 --> 00:13:45,041 You ever known Buck to drop $300 on a bottle before? 325 00:13:45,085 --> 00:13:48,653 No. He never spent a pennyover 15 bucks for a haircut. 326 00:13:49,916 --> 00:13:51,874 Motor oil. Fresh. 327 00:13:51,918 --> 00:13:53,702 This is wherehe kept his Harley. 328 00:13:53,745 --> 00:13:55,443 I never knew he rode one. 329 00:13:55,486 --> 00:13:56,748 Uh, he didn't, really.It was a collectible 330 00:13:56,792 --> 00:14:00,056 he liked working on.'46 Knucklehead. 331 00:14:00,100 --> 00:14:01,841 He was tinkeringwith that thing constantly. 332 00:14:01,884 --> 00:14:04,234 Said it helped him de-stress. 333 00:14:04,278 --> 00:14:06,889 So, he's drinking, drivinga bike he's not used to riding. 334 00:14:06,933 --> 00:14:08,848 If he crashes with some car, it's just gonna look 335 00:14:08,891 --> 00:14:10,458 like another drunk driving accident. 336 00:14:11,502 --> 00:14:13,287 Let's go. 337 00:14:23,123 --> 00:14:26,343 Losing a loved one is never easy. 338 00:14:26,387 --> 00:14:28,780 Yeah, well, uh, 339 00:14:28,824 --> 00:14:30,913 I've had plenty of experience with that by now. 340 00:14:30,957 --> 00:14:33,307 One way or another, 341 00:14:33,350 --> 00:14:35,700 people always leave. 342 00:14:35,744 --> 00:14:37,267 I'm sorry. 343 00:14:37,311 --> 00:14:40,096 It's okay. I can deal with it.How? 344 00:14:40,140 --> 00:14:41,837 How do you deal with it? 345 00:14:41,881 --> 00:14:44,884 By putting it on a shelf. 346 00:14:46,755 --> 00:14:49,149 Coming back to it later when I'm ready. 347 00:14:49,192 --> 00:14:51,151 Mm, that sounds like... 348 00:14:51,194 --> 00:14:53,283 Compartmentalization? 349 00:14:53,327 --> 00:14:55,633 Yeah, I, uh, I skimmed enough of the DSM 350 00:14:55,677 --> 00:14:58,288 to know it's a common coping strategy. 351 00:14:58,332 --> 00:14:59,855 It comes with risks. 352 00:14:59,899 --> 00:15:01,465 Do you know what happens 353 00:15:01,509 --> 00:15:03,293 when you don't deal with those issues 354 00:15:03,337 --> 00:15:05,687 and the mental boxes you put your feelings in 355 00:15:05,730 --> 00:15:06,949 start to overflow? 356 00:15:06,993 --> 00:15:08,995 According to the manual, 357 00:15:09,038 --> 00:15:11,998 anxiety, depression, addiction. 358 00:15:12,041 --> 00:15:13,738 Or worse. 359 00:15:13,782 --> 00:15:16,089 You could find yourself in Buck's shoes. 360 00:15:22,008 --> 00:15:24,662 Buck always called me on my birthday. 361 00:15:27,578 --> 00:15:29,711 Every year. He never missed it. 362 00:15:29,754 --> 00:15:32,714 My own mother, she forgot more than once. 363 00:15:32,757 --> 00:15:34,411 Today 364 00:15:34,455 --> 00:15:37,937 was the first time I thought, 365 00:15:37,980 --> 00:15:41,418 "What's it gonna be like 366 00:15:41,462 --> 00:15:44,204 when I don't get that call ever again?" 367 00:15:45,901 --> 00:15:47,163 [sighs] 368 00:15:47,207 --> 00:15:50,558 Commander, I need a wordwith you in private. 369 00:15:50,601 --> 00:15:52,777 Not now. 370 00:15:52,821 --> 00:15:54,649 My office. 371 00:15:57,652 --> 00:16:00,002 Who was that?We'll dealwith her later. 372 00:16:00,046 --> 00:16:01,786 What's the latest on Buck? 373 00:16:01,830 --> 00:16:03,701 Buck dropped $300 on a bottle of scotch today, sir. 374 00:16:03,745 --> 00:16:05,660 He didn't use cash. We got to find him soon. 375 00:16:07,270 --> 00:16:09,316 You want me to track his credit cards. 376 00:16:09,359 --> 00:16:11,492 So we can locate him in casehe makes another purchase. 377 00:16:11,535 --> 00:16:12,710 It's not exactly by the book. 378 00:16:12,754 --> 00:16:15,017 Well, throw out the book.For Buck. 379 00:16:18,760 --> 00:16:20,718 Did you ever work with a Sergeant Geremias 380 00:16:20,762 --> 00:16:21,719 out of Rampart? 381 00:16:21,763 --> 00:16:23,243 No. 382 00:16:24,592 --> 00:16:28,596 I worked patrol with him way back. 383 00:16:28,639 --> 00:16:31,338 Funniest guy to ever don the uniform. 384 00:16:31,381 --> 00:16:33,775 He was always laughing and joking about something. 385 00:16:33,818 --> 00:16:35,951 Nobody saw it coming. 386 00:16:35,995 --> 00:16:38,345 Killed himself in his garage two years ago. 387 00:16:38,388 --> 00:16:40,216 His wife found him. 388 00:16:40,260 --> 00:16:42,262 It was his son's fifth birthday. 389 00:16:45,265 --> 00:16:47,571 I've been to too many cops' funerals already. 390 00:16:47,615 --> 00:16:50,270 I'll find a way to cut corners and track his credit cards. 391 00:16:50,313 --> 00:16:51,575 You bring Buck home. 392 00:16:51,619 --> 00:16:54,187 [phones beeping] 393 00:16:54,230 --> 00:16:55,623 RHD just got a line 394 00:16:55,666 --> 00:16:57,233 on the second shooter from the restaurant robbery. 395 00:16:57,277 --> 00:16:59,105 Rocker and Becker's squads are still tied up 396 00:16:59,148 --> 00:17:01,411 at the barricade at K-town. 20-Squad's got this. 397 00:17:01,455 --> 00:17:04,066 All right, RHD identified the second shooter 398 00:17:04,110 --> 00:17:05,633 as Aaron Darby. 399 00:17:05,676 --> 00:17:07,243 LKA is an apartmentin Arleta. 400 00:17:07,287 --> 00:17:09,593 Any relation to the dude Street and I pancaked earlier? 401 00:17:09,637 --> 00:17:10,768 Tweaker twins.And they've got 402 00:17:10,812 --> 00:17:12,292 matching recordsfor drug possession. 403 00:17:12,335 --> 00:17:13,467 Bet the restaurant was a cash grab 404 00:17:13,510 --> 00:17:14,772 for their next big score.Yeah. 405 00:17:14,816 --> 00:17:15,773 We're gonna make sure this is 406 00:17:15,817 --> 00:17:16,992 their last score for a long time. 407 00:17:19,821 --> 00:17:21,344 Hey. I talked to Hicks. 408 00:17:21,388 --> 00:17:23,172 We'll know the moment Buck uses his credit card. 409 00:17:23,216 --> 00:17:25,392 For now, we stay focusedon the job. 410 00:17:25,435 --> 00:17:26,567 We keep it loose. 411 00:17:29,135 --> 00:17:31,137 [tires screech] 412 00:17:39,536 --> 00:17:41,234 LAPD! 413 00:17:41,277 --> 00:17:42,278 Give me a two!Two! 414 00:17:42,322 --> 00:17:43,323 Two! Two!Two, two, two, two, two! 415 00:17:43,366 --> 00:17:44,933 Clear!Clear! 416 00:17:44,976 --> 00:17:46,239 Give me a two! 417 00:17:46,282 --> 00:17:47,501 TAN:Kitchen clear! 418 00:17:47,544 --> 00:17:48,719 HONDO:This is 20-David to Command. 419 00:17:48,763 --> 00:17:50,243 All clear. No sign of Darby. 420 00:17:50,286 --> 00:17:52,071 I got something. Bullet holes. 421 00:17:52,114 --> 00:17:53,202 Looks like the shots 422 00:17:53,246 --> 00:17:54,464 came from the other side of the wall. 423 00:17:54,508 --> 00:17:56,379 There were no reportsof shots fired. 424 00:17:56,423 --> 00:17:58,599 May have happened a while ago. 425 00:17:58,642 --> 00:18:01,167 Any record of a female occupantat this address? 426 00:18:01,210 --> 00:18:02,516 No, only Darby. 427 00:18:02,559 --> 00:18:04,518 What?I.D. lists this address. 428 00:18:04,561 --> 00:18:06,215 Just a different unitin the building. 429 00:18:06,259 --> 00:18:07,782 Purse looks stolen. 430 00:18:07,825 --> 00:18:09,653 Darby could still be hidingnext door. Let's move. 431 00:18:19,054 --> 00:18:21,143 20-David to Command.We got signs of forced entry. 432 00:18:21,187 --> 00:18:22,579 Gunshots from the adjacent unit. 433 00:18:22,623 --> 00:18:24,015 Suspect may be inside. 434 00:18:24,059 --> 00:18:25,539 Making entry. 435 00:18:27,889 --> 00:18:30,283 [TV playing quietly] 436 00:18:30,326 --> 00:18:32,241 TAN:Clear! 437 00:18:32,285 --> 00:18:33,547 HONDO: Closet clear. 438 00:18:41,337 --> 00:18:42,904 Get out of here. 439 00:18:44,862 --> 00:18:46,864 I'll call it in. 440 00:18:59,399 --> 00:19:01,183 WENDY: Victor. 441 00:19:02,228 --> 00:19:04,708 Victor? 442 00:19:04,752 --> 00:19:07,146 What was it about that stuffed animal that caught your eye? 443 00:19:09,148 --> 00:19:11,193 It reminded me of a teddy bear 444 00:19:11,237 --> 00:19:14,196 that I got my niece a couple years ago. 445 00:19:14,240 --> 00:19:15,589 Yeah, she loved that thing. 446 00:19:15,632 --> 00:19:17,417 Called it her Rexy Bear. 447 00:19:17,460 --> 00:19:18,635 [chuckles softly] 448 00:19:18,679 --> 00:19:21,551 And all I could do was picture my niece 449 00:19:21,595 --> 00:19:23,423 lying in that baby's place. 450 00:19:25,120 --> 00:19:27,949 And think about how badly I wanted to kill 451 00:19:27,992 --> 00:19:31,387 the bastard who did that to that mom and kid. 452 00:19:31,431 --> 00:19:32,823 It's completely normal to feel that way 453 00:19:32,867 --> 00:19:34,434 given what you witnessed today. 454 00:19:36,436 --> 00:19:40,222 And we could tell by the way their bodies were... 455 00:19:40,266 --> 00:19:44,357 that the mom died trying to protect her little girl. 456 00:19:46,054 --> 00:19:48,752 [sighs] My girlfriend Bonnie-- 457 00:19:48,796 --> 00:19:51,886 we talk about getting married, having kids. 458 00:19:53,453 --> 00:19:55,455 But on days like this, I... 459 00:19:57,631 --> 00:19:59,763 We see a lot of heinous crap. 460 00:19:59,807 --> 00:20:02,853 And I can brush most of it off,but... 461 00:20:02,897 --> 00:20:05,769 what we saw today, 462 00:20:05,813 --> 00:20:07,815 that's gonna stay with me. 463 00:20:07,858 --> 00:20:09,991 Have you thought about exploringthese feelings with Bonnie? 464 00:20:10,034 --> 00:20:12,428 I don't want to put that on her. 465 00:20:12,472 --> 00:20:14,430 You know, it's not fair to dirty her up 466 00:20:14,474 --> 00:20:16,432 with the worst stuff I see on this job. 467 00:20:16,476 --> 00:20:18,129 So how do you usually cope? 468 00:20:18,173 --> 00:20:21,655 On bad days,usually go to my gym after work. 469 00:20:21,698 --> 00:20:24,658 Play pickup ball till I can't feel my legs. 470 00:20:24,701 --> 00:20:27,051 I can't really explain it, but it works. 471 00:20:27,095 --> 00:20:28,836 That's healthier than other options. 472 00:20:32,013 --> 00:20:33,580 Do you want to talk about Buck? 473 00:20:35,016 --> 00:20:36,626 Not really. 474 00:20:36,670 --> 00:20:39,412 [sighs] I think I'll save that for the gym. 475 00:20:40,500 --> 00:20:42,502 ♪ 476 00:20:46,201 --> 00:20:48,203 [panting softly] 477 00:21:00,084 --> 00:21:02,043 Just trying to get the blood off. 478 00:21:02,086 --> 00:21:04,567 Last I checked, soap works better than steel. 479 00:21:04,611 --> 00:21:06,265 Yeah. 480 00:21:10,399 --> 00:21:12,706 All that... 481 00:21:12,749 --> 00:21:14,534 for what? 482 00:21:14,577 --> 00:21:17,841 So, uh, some junkie can score some cash? 483 00:21:19,190 --> 00:21:21,149 We should've beenin that house sooner. 484 00:21:21,192 --> 00:21:23,760 Darby killed that family long before we even knew his name. 485 00:21:23,804 --> 00:21:25,240 Nobody could've stopped it. 486 00:21:25,284 --> 00:21:27,503 No one?Not even a neighbor? 487 00:21:27,547 --> 00:21:31,202 Or a coworker or-or a loved oneor-or the friggin' mailman? 488 00:21:31,246 --> 00:21:35,163 Someone had to seeor hear something. Someone! 489 00:21:35,206 --> 00:21:38,384 We can't save everybody, Street. 490 00:21:38,427 --> 00:21:40,690 Buck drilled that into me from day one. 491 00:21:44,085 --> 00:21:45,956 I know. Me, too. 492 00:21:49,612 --> 00:21:51,788 [sighs] 493 00:21:51,832 --> 00:21:53,964 How did we miss this? 494 00:21:54,008 --> 00:21:56,967 How did we misshow much he was hurting? 495 00:21:57,011 --> 00:22:00,144 He was too proud to show us any signs. 496 00:22:00,188 --> 00:22:03,713 Was he? Or did we justnot want to see it 497 00:22:03,757 --> 00:22:07,587 'cause we don't want to dealwith-with our stuff head-on? 498 00:22:07,630 --> 00:22:09,676 Straight out of the academy, we are taught 499 00:22:09,719 --> 00:22:12,722 not to wear our emotions on our sleeves. 500 00:22:12,766 --> 00:22:14,768 The last thing you want is some bad guy 501 00:22:14,811 --> 00:22:17,248 to see fear in your eyes while you're on a beat. 502 00:22:17,292 --> 00:22:18,772 That is how you become a target. 503 00:22:20,339 --> 00:22:23,951 Over time, you just get really good at hiding everything. 504 00:22:26,432 --> 00:22:28,521 Sometimes too good, I guess. 505 00:22:28,564 --> 00:22:30,044 [sighs softly] 506 00:22:30,087 --> 00:22:32,525 I just lost my brother. 507 00:22:32,568 --> 00:22:36,093 I can't handlelosing Buck now, too. 508 00:22:36,137 --> 00:22:39,793 That is why we have to find him. 509 00:22:43,666 --> 00:22:46,277 Sergeant Harrelson,need a minute of your time. 510 00:22:46,321 --> 00:22:47,931 I don't have a minute. 511 00:22:47,975 --> 00:22:49,933 No one around here seems to. 512 00:22:49,977 --> 00:22:53,154 My client would like to makea donation on your behalf. 513 00:22:53,197 --> 00:22:54,938 A donation?Mm-hmm. 514 00:22:54,982 --> 00:22:58,289 To who?To SWAT, or to a charityof your choice. 515 00:22:58,333 --> 00:22:59,726 Who is the client? 516 00:22:59,769 --> 00:23:01,597 I've been instructednot to say. 517 00:23:01,641 --> 00:23:03,425 All right, you tell your client to soldier up 518 00:23:03,469 --> 00:23:05,732 and make the decision himself. 519 00:23:05,775 --> 00:23:08,952 It's a one million dollardonation. 520 00:23:10,084 --> 00:23:11,738 [chuckles] 521 00:23:11,781 --> 00:23:14,871 Okay. What's this really about? 522 00:23:14,915 --> 00:23:17,961 I can't say,but I can guarantee 523 00:23:18,005 --> 00:23:20,442 that this gesture comesfrom the best of places. 524 00:23:20,486 --> 00:23:21,878 TAN: Hey, Hondo? 525 00:23:21,922 --> 00:23:23,532 We got something. Can I talk to you? 526 00:23:23,576 --> 00:23:25,229 I'm sorry. I can't accept. 527 00:23:25,273 --> 00:23:27,580 Not until I know who the client is and why 528 00:23:27,623 --> 00:23:29,582 they are allegedly willing to drop seven figures. 529 00:23:29,625 --> 00:23:31,845 Trevor, see her out.We just got a hit 530 00:23:31,888 --> 00:23:34,021 on Buck's credit cardat a diner out in Castaic. 531 00:23:34,064 --> 00:23:35,501 You got a number for the place? 532 00:23:35,544 --> 00:23:37,720 Yeah, just sent it to you.[phone chimes] 533 00:23:37,764 --> 00:23:39,722 All right, Deacon's the closest. 534 00:23:39,766 --> 00:23:42,116 Get him the address, tell him to get there ASAP, 535 00:23:42,159 --> 00:23:44,335 and I'll meet him as soon as I can.Yeah. 536 00:23:47,904 --> 00:23:49,863 WOMAN: Okay. 537 00:23:49,906 --> 00:23:51,952 [register bell dings] 538 00:23:51,995 --> 00:23:54,084 Uh, Mr. Spivey, there's a phone call for you. 539 00:23:54,128 --> 00:23:56,173 What? That's, uh... that's got to be a mistake. 540 00:23:56,217 --> 00:23:57,392 No one knows I'm here. 541 00:23:57,436 --> 00:23:58,872 He said it's important. 542 00:23:58,915 --> 00:24:01,701 Okay. Thanks. 543 00:24:02,745 --> 00:24:04,181 [sighs] Hello? 544 00:24:04,225 --> 00:24:05,269 HONDO: Buck. 545 00:24:05,313 --> 00:24:06,488 I'm so glad to hear your voice. 546 00:24:06,532 --> 00:24:09,186 Hondo, what do you want? 547 00:24:09,230 --> 00:24:10,753 I'm just calling to check in on you. 548 00:24:10,797 --> 00:24:11,972 Yeah, it's, uh, not a good time. 549 00:24:12,015 --> 00:24:13,016 Listen. 550 00:24:13,060 --> 00:24:15,018 Just stay right there. 551 00:24:15,062 --> 00:24:17,325 And I'll come see you, andwe can have that meal we've been 552 00:24:17,368 --> 00:24:18,674 trying to schedule. 553 00:24:18,718 --> 00:24:20,371 Rain check, okay? I, uh, I got to go. 554 00:24:20,415 --> 00:24:22,069 No, wait. Buck, wait. 555 00:24:24,114 --> 00:24:28,205 Buck... are you thinking about killing yourself? 556 00:24:33,907 --> 00:24:37,084 Look, I never blamed you, Hondo,for anything. 557 00:24:37,127 --> 00:24:39,434 I hope you know that. 558 00:24:39,478 --> 00:24:41,044 [phone beeps] 559 00:24:41,088 --> 00:24:42,263 No, Buck. 560 00:24:42,306 --> 00:24:44,134 Buck! 561 00:24:47,137 --> 00:24:48,530 Thanks, Gia. 562 00:24:48,574 --> 00:24:50,227 You're welcome. 563 00:25:02,109 --> 00:25:05,721 I was just hoping we were wrong... 564 00:25:05,765 --> 00:25:07,810 Buck was fine. 565 00:25:10,334 --> 00:25:12,511 I didn't want it to be real. 566 00:25:15,731 --> 00:25:19,039 But deep down, I suppose, I, uh... 567 00:25:19,082 --> 00:25:20,954 I knew he was struggling. 568 00:25:20,997 --> 00:25:23,173 Denial is easier than confrontation. 569 00:25:23,217 --> 00:25:24,610 [chuckles softly] 570 00:25:24,653 --> 00:25:26,350 Confronting people is part of the job description. 571 00:25:26,394 --> 00:25:27,787 Mine, too. 572 00:25:27,830 --> 00:25:29,484 But this wasn't just anybody. 573 00:25:29,528 --> 00:25:31,573 It was somebody you loved and respected. 574 00:25:33,532 --> 00:25:36,056 I was afraid of damaging my relationship with Buck. 575 00:25:36,099 --> 00:25:38,798 I thought he might hate me if I brought it up, 576 00:25:38,841 --> 00:25:41,452 and he'd think I was calling him weak. 577 00:25:44,281 --> 00:25:47,197 I just don't get how he fell so far so fast. 578 00:25:50,070 --> 00:25:52,072 I mean, what did I miss? 579 00:25:54,944 --> 00:25:56,946 The Raymont Harris shooting? 580 00:25:59,209 --> 00:26:01,211 His divorce? 581 00:26:02,430 --> 00:26:03,823 [sighs] 582 00:26:03,866 --> 00:26:05,868 The chronic pain? 583 00:26:08,001 --> 00:26:10,307 Not being on SWAT anymore? 584 00:26:15,182 --> 00:26:17,445 And the loneliness. 585 00:26:17,488 --> 00:26:21,623 No one moment can lead to self-harm. 586 00:26:21,667 --> 00:26:25,105 It's a buildup of many issues over time. 587 00:26:25,148 --> 00:26:27,629 Physical and emotional traumas. 588 00:26:27,673 --> 00:26:28,935 Buck saw more than his fair share of trauma. 589 00:26:28,978 --> 00:26:30,937 That's for damn sure.You all do. 590 00:26:30,980 --> 00:26:34,201 Look at what youand your team experienced today. 591 00:26:34,244 --> 00:26:37,334 A one-year-old with a gunshot wound to her face, 592 00:26:37,378 --> 00:26:40,599 a mom trying to protect her,shot multiple times in the back. 593 00:26:40,642 --> 00:26:43,036 I can't even think of anything more awful. 594 00:26:43,079 --> 00:26:46,039 Traumatic incidents like that are part of the reason 595 00:26:46,082 --> 00:26:50,217 why cops have elevated rates of PTSD, depression... 596 00:26:50,260 --> 00:26:51,610 And suicide. 597 00:26:54,308 --> 00:26:56,266 I know we're more likely to kill ourselves 598 00:26:56,310 --> 00:26:58,225 than to die in the line of duty. 599 00:26:59,661 --> 00:27:01,968 But how do we fix it? 600 00:27:04,797 --> 00:27:08,278 I wish I had a simple answer forthat, but there just isn't one. 601 00:27:12,718 --> 00:27:14,720 Deacon got to the dinerwithin minutes, 602 00:27:14,763 --> 00:27:16,896 but there was no sign of Buck.[device beeps] 603 00:27:16,939 --> 00:27:19,028 He must have leftright after he hung up. 604 00:27:19,072 --> 00:27:21,030 I don't know. Maybe I screwed upby calling him. 605 00:27:21,074 --> 00:27:23,424 He'd used his credit card. He was already on his way out. 606 00:27:23,467 --> 00:27:25,600 This way, he knows we're looking for him and we care. 607 00:27:25,644 --> 00:27:27,733 Or it might make him go through with it faster. 608 00:27:27,776 --> 00:27:30,039 These are the placesBuck used his credit card 609 00:27:30,083 --> 00:27:31,606 in the last 24 hours: 610 00:27:31,650 --> 00:27:34,043 the diner in Castaic,a gas station in Stevenson Ranch 611 00:27:34,087 --> 00:27:35,610 and a liquor storein North Hollywood. 612 00:27:35,654 --> 00:27:37,220 Okay, the storage spot was right here. 613 00:27:37,264 --> 00:27:39,222 Looks like he got the booze, picked up his bike, 614 00:27:39,266 --> 00:27:40,920 filled his tank on the way to Castaic. 615 00:27:40,963 --> 00:27:42,965 Hey, I justgot off the phone with Jenny. 616 00:27:43,009 --> 00:27:44,924 Castaic Diner was Buck'sfavorite breakfast spot. 617 00:27:44,967 --> 00:27:46,316 I knew I recognized it. 618 00:27:46,360 --> 00:27:48,101 They stopped thereevery time they went camping. 619 00:27:48,144 --> 00:27:49,929 At Castaic Lake. That's where Buck loves fishing. 620 00:27:49,972 --> 00:27:51,974 Castaic's only, like, 15 miles from that diner. 621 00:27:52,018 --> 00:27:53,628 You think that's where he's headed? 622 00:27:53,672 --> 00:27:56,109 Get the coordinates to Deac.Street and I will meet him. 623 00:27:56,152 --> 00:27:57,588 [alarm beeping] 624 00:27:57,632 --> 00:27:59,068 You got to be kidding. 625 00:27:59,112 --> 00:28:00,504 A BOLO hit on Aaron Darby 626 00:28:00,548 --> 00:28:02,115 at his cousin's place in City Terrace. 627 00:28:02,158 --> 00:28:04,160 Rocker and Becker's squads still in K-Town. 628 00:28:04,204 --> 00:28:05,771 20-Squad's still up. 629 00:28:05,814 --> 00:28:07,816 All right, grabwhoever's available downstairs 630 00:28:07,860 --> 00:28:09,252 to fill up the squad. 631 00:28:09,296 --> 00:28:11,951 Let's go get this bastard.What about Buck? 632 00:28:11,994 --> 00:28:14,693 We just got to have faiththat Deac's gonna find him. 633 00:28:19,785 --> 00:28:20,873 [glass breaks, flashbang grenade booms] 634 00:28:20,916 --> 00:28:22,570 [groans] 635 00:28:22,613 --> 00:28:24,137 LAPD!CHRIS: Go! 636 00:28:25,747 --> 00:28:27,793 Stay down!Where's Darby?! 637 00:28:27,836 --> 00:28:28,924 Get down! 638 00:28:28,968 --> 00:28:30,534 [thumping upstairs] 639 00:28:30,578 --> 00:28:32,275 Chris, upstairs. Move! 640 00:28:37,106 --> 00:28:38,891 LAPD! 641 00:28:43,330 --> 00:28:45,071 CHRIS:24-David! Shots fired. 642 00:28:45,114 --> 00:28:46,768 Suspect's outside, heading eastbound on foot. 643 00:28:46,812 --> 00:28:48,901 [siren wailing] 644 00:28:49,945 --> 00:28:51,555 [tires screech, woman screams] 645 00:28:51,599 --> 00:28:52,861 [siren wailing] 646 00:28:56,691 --> 00:28:58,911 25-David in pursuit! 647 00:29:13,664 --> 00:29:16,624 26-David. Suspect over the wallinto the alley. Lost visual. 648 00:29:16,667 --> 00:29:18,669 HONDO: Stay on him. I'm on my way. 649 00:29:26,155 --> 00:29:27,504 [grunting, tires screech] 650 00:29:31,378 --> 00:29:32,335 HONDO: He jumped out in front of me. 651 00:29:32,379 --> 00:29:33,946 [groans] 652 00:29:33,989 --> 00:29:35,686 Don't give me another reason to pull this trigger. 653 00:29:35,730 --> 00:29:38,037 Give me your hands. 654 00:29:38,080 --> 00:29:39,908 [phone vibrating] 655 00:29:41,910 --> 00:29:43,738 Deacon, what do you got? 656 00:29:43,782 --> 00:29:44,913 I found Buck. 657 00:29:47,046 --> 00:29:48,395 I'm gonna engage. 658 00:29:48,438 --> 00:29:49,526 I'll send you the coordinates now. 659 00:29:49,570 --> 00:29:50,745 Be there as fast as we can. 660 00:29:58,274 --> 00:30:00,276 How's it going, Buck? 661 00:30:02,278 --> 00:30:04,237 [groans] 662 00:30:04,280 --> 00:30:06,239 Had better days, Deac. 663 00:30:06,282 --> 00:30:08,894 I hear that. 664 00:30:08,937 --> 00:30:10,678 Me, too. 665 00:30:10,721 --> 00:30:13,028 [sighs] 666 00:30:13,072 --> 00:30:15,335 Something happen today thatmake you want to hurt yourself? 667 00:30:15,378 --> 00:30:16,423 That's close enough. 668 00:30:20,601 --> 00:30:23,430 I remember you talking about this place. 669 00:30:23,473 --> 00:30:25,780 It's beautiful. 670 00:30:25,824 --> 00:30:29,262 It's a bit of a hiketo get up here. 671 00:30:29,305 --> 00:30:32,352 I know this routine, Deac. 672 00:30:32,395 --> 00:30:35,442 Build an empathy, rapport, influence. 673 00:30:35,485 --> 00:30:37,836 The Behavioral Change Stairway? 674 00:30:39,272 --> 00:30:41,317 I taught it to you. 675 00:30:43,450 --> 00:30:45,408 Do you have a weapon? 676 00:30:45,452 --> 00:30:47,889 What do you think? 677 00:30:51,153 --> 00:30:53,764 I need to know why you want to kill yourself. 678 00:30:54,809 --> 00:30:57,203 Well, because, Deac, 679 00:30:57,246 --> 00:31:00,946 eventually, a man just outlives his usefulness, 680 00:31:00,989 --> 00:31:03,644 and then there's just no point. 681 00:31:03,687 --> 00:31:06,125 No point to what? 682 00:31:06,168 --> 00:31:09,563 To pretending anymore, Deac, just to any of it. 683 00:31:12,044 --> 00:31:13,523 [chuckles softly] 684 00:31:13,567 --> 00:31:16,831 Buck, there's alwaysa point. 685 00:31:16,875 --> 00:31:19,573 I'm here. Let's just... let's just work this out together. 686 00:31:21,009 --> 00:31:23,185 I've made up my mind, Deac. 687 00:31:23,229 --> 00:31:26,754 You should go home to Annie and the kids. 688 00:31:26,797 --> 00:31:29,409 This is happening,and I don't want you to see it. 689 00:31:35,719 --> 00:31:37,199 Go home, Deac. 690 00:31:42,901 --> 00:31:44,511 DEACON:I know things are bad right now. 691 00:31:44,554 --> 00:31:46,078 I know, and I-I just, I... 692 00:31:46,121 --> 00:31:48,515 I think I can help you if you just talk to me. 693 00:31:48,558 --> 00:31:51,387 Deac, I've been saying it for the last 30 minutes, man. 694 00:31:51,431 --> 00:31:52,693 I'm done talking. 695 00:31:52,736 --> 00:31:54,521 I'm just done talking, all right? 696 00:31:54,564 --> 00:31:56,349 Please just go. 697 00:31:56,392 --> 00:31:57,741 Please just... 698 00:32:00,570 --> 00:32:02,572 You called in the cavalry? 699 00:32:04,270 --> 00:32:06,098 Stop!Hey, hey. 700 00:32:06,141 --> 00:32:08,622 If you're here to tell me that I'm making a big mistake, 701 00:32:08,665 --> 00:32:10,189 don't bother, all right? You're wasting your time. 702 00:32:10,232 --> 00:32:11,799 Buck, you are worth our time. 703 00:32:11,842 --> 00:32:14,497 No, I'm not worth your time. 704 00:32:14,541 --> 00:32:16,195 I used to be. 705 00:32:16,238 --> 00:32:18,153 You know, but now I'm just... 706 00:32:18,197 --> 00:32:20,460 I'm a, I'm a shell of myself, guys. 707 00:32:20,503 --> 00:32:22,766 I mean, come on. You see it. 708 00:32:25,378 --> 00:32:27,336 You brought us into 20-Squad. 709 00:32:27,380 --> 00:32:30,296 And it was you that taught us you don't leave a man behind. 710 00:32:30,339 --> 00:32:31,993 We're not gonna, we're notgonna start that today. 711 00:32:32,037 --> 00:32:34,300 Oh, my 20-Squad's finished. It's not me anymore. 712 00:32:34,343 --> 00:32:36,432 Of course it is, Buck. You're still one of us, man. 713 00:32:36,476 --> 00:32:38,521 No, no, Hondo, I'm not one of you. 714 00:32:38,565 --> 00:32:41,089 I'm not one of you guys anymore. 715 00:32:43,048 --> 00:32:45,964 I was, I was barely keeping it together 716 00:32:46,007 --> 00:32:48,401 before I... before I shot Raymont. 717 00:32:49,750 --> 00:32:52,144 I lost, I lost my Jenny. 718 00:32:52,187 --> 00:32:53,972 I lost SWAT. 719 00:32:54,015 --> 00:32:56,496 I-I can't, I can't sleep. 720 00:32:56,539 --> 00:32:59,281 My knees, my back, on fire. 721 00:32:59,325 --> 00:33:01,196 Every day. 722 00:33:01,240 --> 00:33:04,243 Everything just feels so... just heavy. 723 00:33:06,158 --> 00:33:08,247 I can't even count the nights that I just 724 00:33:08,290 --> 00:33:11,250 hope and I pray that the lightsup here would just go out, 725 00:33:11,293 --> 00:33:14,122 you know, just so that the painwould just go away. 726 00:33:15,428 --> 00:33:17,430 I'm tired, man. I'm sick of it. 727 00:33:17,473 --> 00:33:20,737 I'm sick of hoping and I'm sick of waiting for this. 728 00:33:20,781 --> 00:33:22,478 There's ways of getting better,man, and you know that. 729 00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:26,091 I don't, I don't care. 730 00:33:26,134 --> 00:33:28,310 I don't care if there are, man. 731 00:33:28,354 --> 00:33:31,444 I'm just... I'm done. 732 00:33:31,487 --> 00:33:33,228 I'm done, Hondo. 733 00:33:33,272 --> 00:33:34,969 I know you're in a lot of pain. 734 00:33:35,013 --> 00:33:38,059 And that's why you can't seehow losing you is gonna hurt us. 735 00:33:38,103 --> 00:33:39,800 You've been fine without me. 736 00:33:39,843 --> 00:33:41,236 You'll be fine. 737 00:33:41,280 --> 00:33:42,498 I won't. 738 00:33:42,542 --> 00:33:44,631 Buck, 739 00:33:44,674 --> 00:33:47,416 if you didn't come into my life,I don't know where I'd be. 740 00:33:47,460 --> 00:33:49,984 I-I d-- I don't even know if I'd be alive right now. 741 00:33:52,378 --> 00:33:56,382 Buck, you are the closest thingI ever had to a father. 742 00:34:00,342 --> 00:34:02,475 What about Lila and Matthew? 743 00:34:02,518 --> 00:34:04,825 What am I gonna tell them when they ask how their uncle died? 744 00:34:04,868 --> 00:34:06,131 What am I supposed to say? 745 00:34:06,174 --> 00:34:07,784 You think that's a conversationI want to have? 746 00:34:10,265 --> 00:34:13,834 So much of what we have achievedis because of you. 747 00:34:13,877 --> 00:34:16,097 Don't do this to us. 748 00:34:16,141 --> 00:34:18,491 Don't make us live in a world without you. 749 00:34:18,534 --> 00:34:20,493 [sighs] 750 00:34:20,536 --> 00:34:22,538 ♪ 751 00:34:30,155 --> 00:34:32,592 [stifled crying] 752 00:34:37,684 --> 00:34:39,599 [inhales] 753 00:34:39,642 --> 00:34:40,861 [sobs softly] 754 00:34:43,733 --> 00:34:45,735 ♪ 755 00:34:56,181 --> 00:34:58,661 [sighs] 756 00:34:58,705 --> 00:35:01,055 [crying]: I'm sorry. 757 00:35:01,099 --> 00:35:02,622 [whispers]:Oh, it's okay. 758 00:35:05,538 --> 00:35:06,626 WENDY: I've set Buck up 759 00:35:06,669 --> 00:35:08,236 with a colleague, Dr. Kurt Derrian. 760 00:35:08,280 --> 00:35:10,238 He's a former cop turned psychologist. 761 00:35:10,282 --> 00:35:12,284 He'll get Buck and where he's coming from. 762 00:35:12,327 --> 00:35:13,285 Sounds perfect. 763 00:35:13,328 --> 00:35:14,808 Buck all set at home? 764 00:35:14,851 --> 00:35:16,157 Well, the team's gonna be staying with him in shifts, 765 00:35:16,201 --> 00:35:17,767 keeping him company.Good. 766 00:35:17,811 --> 00:35:20,422 It's a long road ahead, butwe'll get him the help he needs. 767 00:35:20,466 --> 00:35:22,816 Chris is first up for her psych debrief. 768 00:35:22,859 --> 00:35:24,644 I'll see you for yours in about an hour. 769 00:35:24,687 --> 00:35:26,602 Yes, you will. 770 00:35:26,646 --> 00:35:28,604 [exhales] 771 00:35:28,648 --> 00:35:30,737 Finally. 772 00:35:30,780 --> 00:35:33,174 Othella Baker. 773 00:35:33,218 --> 00:35:34,306 Wait a minute. 774 00:35:34,349 --> 00:35:35,307 You're her client? 775 00:35:35,350 --> 00:35:36,656 I have to say, Sergeant, 776 00:35:36,699 --> 00:35:39,267 I have never in my life had so much trouble 777 00:35:39,311 --> 00:35:40,834 giving away a million dollars. 778 00:35:40,877 --> 00:35:43,576 Okay, I am really confused.What is going on here, exactly? 779 00:35:43,619 --> 00:35:47,362 I was convinced I was gonna die last week, 780 00:35:47,406 --> 00:35:49,799 when that gunman had me on the hotel rooftop. 781 00:35:49,843 --> 00:35:50,800 Mm-hmm. 782 00:35:50,844 --> 00:35:51,975 And then you saved me. 783 00:35:52,019 --> 00:35:53,281 It was a team effort. 784 00:35:53,325 --> 00:35:55,153 There was a lot of us out there chipping in. 785 00:35:55,196 --> 00:35:57,242 But it was your hand that grabbed me, 786 00:35:57,285 --> 00:35:58,808 kept me from falling. 787 00:35:58,852 --> 00:36:02,812 You know that corny saying, "Wake up and smell the roses"? 788 00:36:02,856 --> 00:36:04,771 [both chuckle] 789 00:36:04,814 --> 00:36:07,817 Well, I do that now. 790 00:36:07,861 --> 00:36:10,472 One big whiff every morning, 791 00:36:10,516 --> 00:36:12,822 and it makes my whole damn day. 792 00:36:12,866 --> 00:36:13,823 [chuckles] 793 00:36:13,867 --> 00:36:14,911 I want to pay it forward. 794 00:36:14,955 --> 00:36:16,086 You really don'thave to do that. 795 00:36:16,130 --> 00:36:18,001 I know, but I'm going to anyway. 796 00:36:18,045 --> 00:36:19,351 [chuckles] 797 00:36:19,394 --> 00:36:21,309 Now, I just need the name of a worthy charity 798 00:36:21,353 --> 00:36:22,876 that you believe in. 799 00:36:26,053 --> 00:36:27,533 What's up, guys? 800 00:36:29,709 --> 00:36:31,232 [sighs] 801 00:36:31,276 --> 00:36:33,495 You missed all the fun. 802 00:36:33,539 --> 00:36:36,019 There was three inches of waterwhen I got here. 803 00:36:36,063 --> 00:36:39,240 Baby, I had plenty of fun today myself. 804 00:36:39,284 --> 00:36:40,763 [chuckles softly] 805 00:36:40,807 --> 00:36:43,026 [chuckles]Mmm. 806 00:36:43,070 --> 00:36:44,419 [inhales deeply] 807 00:36:44,463 --> 00:36:45,855 Mmm. 808 00:36:45,899 --> 00:36:47,422 How's Buck? 809 00:36:47,466 --> 00:36:49,424 He's all right. 810 00:36:49,468 --> 00:36:51,209 For now. 811 00:36:52,558 --> 00:36:54,255 Here, let me help you out. 812 00:36:54,299 --> 00:36:58,346 It's gonna be about five grand to fix the water damage. 813 00:36:58,390 --> 00:37:00,522 Five grand, huh? 814 00:37:00,566 --> 00:37:02,872 No idea how I'm gonnaraise the funds for it. 815 00:37:02,916 --> 00:37:04,874 Maybe a cook-offor something. 816 00:37:04,918 --> 00:37:07,964 I do make a mean chili gumbo. [chuckles] 817 00:37:08,008 --> 00:37:09,879 [chuckles] 818 00:37:11,229 --> 00:37:13,361 Would a half a million dollars do it? 819 00:37:13,405 --> 00:37:15,842 Oh, yeah. I think that'll cover most of it. 820 00:37:15,885 --> 00:37:17,539 Baby, I am so serious. 821 00:37:17,583 --> 00:37:18,932 About what?Tomorrow, 822 00:37:18,975 --> 00:37:21,804 you are gonna get a check from an anonymous donor 823 00:37:21,848 --> 00:37:25,286 for $500,000 824 00:37:25,330 --> 00:37:26,896 to this community center. 825 00:37:26,940 --> 00:37:28,898 It's gonna allow you to do everything 826 00:37:28,942 --> 00:37:30,726 you've been talking about for these kids. 827 00:37:30,770 --> 00:37:32,685 Are you for real right now? 828 00:37:32,728 --> 00:37:34,339 As real as a heart attack. 829 00:37:34,382 --> 00:37:35,557 Uh, wait a minute. 830 00:37:35,601 --> 00:37:36,776 [both chuckle] 831 00:37:36,819 --> 00:37:38,212 Who's giving us this money? 832 00:37:38,256 --> 00:37:40,345 She made me promise I wouldn't tell anybody. 833 00:37:40,388 --> 00:37:42,085 "She"?Okay, oops, I've already said too much. 834 00:37:42,129 --> 00:37:44,218 You ain't getting nothing else out of me. 835 00:37:44,262 --> 00:37:45,872 Okay. [chuckles][chuckles] 836 00:37:45,915 --> 00:37:48,353 You better not be playing with me here. 837 00:37:49,615 --> 00:37:51,269 How the helldid this happen? 838 00:37:51,312 --> 00:37:52,966 A million-dollar donation is coming, 839 00:37:53,009 --> 00:37:54,620 courtesy of someone SWAT helped. 840 00:37:54,663 --> 00:37:58,058 And half of it's going to the LAPD Suicide Prevention Fund. 841 00:37:58,101 --> 00:38:00,452 And the other half is coming right here. 842 00:38:00,495 --> 00:38:01,670 [exhales] 843 00:38:01,714 --> 00:38:03,455 Oh, my God. 844 00:38:04,543 --> 00:38:07,328 There was a time when I was lost, 845 00:38:07,372 --> 00:38:10,113 and Buck helped me get back on track. 846 00:38:10,157 --> 00:38:13,726 You're doing the same thing forthe kids who come through here. 847 00:38:13,769 --> 00:38:15,945 You're giving 'em a sense of purpose, 848 00:38:15,989 --> 00:38:17,730 of belonging. 849 00:38:17,773 --> 00:38:19,079 It's important. 850 00:38:19,122 --> 00:38:21,473 I know. [exhales] 851 00:38:21,516 --> 00:38:23,562 Maybe what you're doing will make it easier for them 852 00:38:23,605 --> 00:38:24,998 than it is for some of us. 853 00:38:25,041 --> 00:38:26,956 [chuckles] 854 00:38:27,000 --> 00:38:29,176 [chuckles]Oh. 855 00:38:32,875 --> 00:38:36,009 Honestly, I'm not a big fan of debriefings. 856 00:38:37,793 --> 00:38:40,318 [clears throat] People tend tocome to me with their problems, 857 00:38:40,361 --> 00:38:41,623 not the other way around. 858 00:38:41,667 --> 00:38:43,321 Who listens when you have a problem? 859 00:38:43,364 --> 00:38:45,323 My wife. 860 00:38:47,368 --> 00:38:48,848 God. 861 00:38:50,197 --> 00:38:53,287 Growing up Catholic, you, uh... 862 00:38:53,331 --> 00:38:55,637 you learn to roll with the punches. 863 00:38:55,681 --> 00:38:57,639 You don't complain. 864 00:38:57,683 --> 00:38:59,641 So it's okay for others to unload their feelings 865 00:38:59,685 --> 00:39:01,164 but not you? 866 00:39:01,208 --> 00:39:03,384 Seems like a bit of a double standard. 867 00:39:06,387 --> 00:39:09,216 Everything I say... 868 00:39:09,259 --> 00:39:10,826 stays in this room? 869 00:39:10,870 --> 00:39:13,046 Of course. 870 00:39:20,009 --> 00:39:23,012 Seeing Buck today... 871 00:39:23,056 --> 00:39:24,579 terrified me. 872 00:39:24,623 --> 00:39:26,929 The fear of losing someone you care about 873 00:39:26,973 --> 00:39:28,496 can be paralyzing. 874 00:39:31,586 --> 00:39:33,283 No. 875 00:39:35,503 --> 00:39:38,724 It terrified me, 876 00:39:38,767 --> 00:39:42,075 because, in that moment, 877 00:39:42,118 --> 00:39:46,384 I understood exactly where Buck was coming from. 878 00:39:50,300 --> 00:39:52,868 I, uh... 879 00:39:52,912 --> 00:39:55,915 I hit a low point last year. 880 00:39:58,526 --> 00:40:01,094 There were... 881 00:40:01,137 --> 00:40:04,489 money problems and... 882 00:40:04,532 --> 00:40:06,665 family problems. 883 00:40:08,231 --> 00:40:10,625 And I was working... 884 00:40:12,671 --> 00:40:14,934 I was working my tail off. 885 00:40:16,936 --> 00:40:19,939 I was exhausted all the time. 886 00:40:24,030 --> 00:40:26,032 And, uh... 887 00:40:29,470 --> 00:40:31,559 I just felt like 888 00:40:31,603 --> 00:40:35,041 I was failing everyone a-around me. 889 00:40:38,044 --> 00:40:39,741 Like I was failing myself. 890 00:40:39,785 --> 00:40:41,787 [crying softly] 891 00:40:46,966 --> 00:40:49,403 One day, I... 892 00:40:49,447 --> 00:40:51,449 I looked at my gun. 893 00:40:55,191 --> 00:40:56,715 I saw a way out. 894 00:40:56,758 --> 00:40:59,065 I just thought it would be easier, 895 00:40:59,108 --> 00:41:00,980 it'd be... 896 00:41:01,023 --> 00:41:04,026 better for everyone around me, somehow. 897 00:41:06,289 --> 00:41:09,467 Do you still think about taking your life, David? 898 00:41:11,643 --> 00:41:13,035 No. 899 00:41:13,079 --> 00:41:15,560 I don't. Not once... since then. 900 00:41:15,603 --> 00:41:16,996 No. 901 00:41:21,435 --> 00:41:23,437 And seeing Buck like that... 902 00:41:25,744 --> 00:41:28,181 ...in that dark place... 903 00:41:32,838 --> 00:41:35,971 ...made me realize how much I have to lose. 904 00:41:36,015 --> 00:41:39,975 I admire the courage it took for you to tell me that. 905 00:41:40,019 --> 00:41:42,282 [exhales] 906 00:41:47,200 --> 00:41:49,376 Do you think... 907 00:41:51,857 --> 00:41:55,338 You think maybe we can make this a... 908 00:41:55,382 --> 00:41:58,167 a semi-regular thing? 909 00:41:58,211 --> 00:41:59,995 I'd like that. 910 00:42:01,388 --> 00:42:03,085 Captioning sponsored by CBS 911 00:42:03,129 --> 00:42:03,390 Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH access.wgbh.org 912 00:42:15,141 --> 00:42:18,057 Suicide is not inevitable for anyone. 913 00:42:18,100 --> 00:42:19,667 There's no shame in seeking help, 914 00:42:19,711 --> 00:42:21,234 and there are resources available 915 00:42:21,277 --> 00:42:23,236 if you or a loved one is contemplating suicide. 916 00:42:23,279 --> 00:42:25,543 Here are five key steps that you can take 917 00:42:25,586 --> 00:42:27,109 to help someone who is struggling. 918 00:42:27,153 --> 00:42:30,722 Ask: "Are you thinking about committing suicide?" 919 00:42:30,765 --> 00:42:32,724 Listen to their reasons for emotional pain, 920 00:42:32,767 --> 00:42:35,422 and then help them refocus on their reasons for living. 921 00:42:35,465 --> 00:42:36,858 Keep them safe. 922 00:42:36,902 --> 00:42:38,425 Put time and distance between the person 923 00:42:38,468 --> 00:42:40,035 and potential suicide methods. 924 00:42:40,079 --> 00:42:43,212 Be there for them-- in person, over the phone, 925 00:42:43,256 --> 00:42:44,866 or however else you can. 926 00:42:44,910 --> 00:42:46,607 Connect them to helpful resources, 927 00:42:46,651 --> 00:42:49,088 like the National Suicide Prevention hotline. 928 00:42:49,131 --> 00:42:50,089 And follow up. 929 00:42:50,132 --> 00:42:52,395 Text, call or see them in person 930 00:42:52,439 --> 00:42:55,268 to help reinforce their connectedness to the world. 931 00:42:55,311 --> 00:42:57,487 Please click the link below for further information 932 00:42:57,531 --> 00:42:59,533 on suicide prevention resources.